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Friday... Friday... Friday

$46.25

I went to bed Thursday night with every intention of NOT spending any money... but I did anyway. Lunch starting at a set time is a fantasy for me.  There are days where I can time things so at 12:30 I can catch up with Perez Hilton and shut down for 30 minutes but there are some days I put off food until 3pm when I can stuff food in my mouth while completing all sorts of mindless paperwork.  Friday was that kind of day and to make matters worse what I pulled out of my freezer that morning didn't sound appetizing at all.  Earlier in the day I got a huge surprise.  My boss bought a ticket for SLC to go to his son in laws 40th b-day so when I asked him if he wanted something for lunch I had no intention of letting him buy it.  In other news I'm officially the mayor of Anita's Kitchen ($16.11).

The day went on and I was itching to go out to the bar... hang out... be stupid but currently my Partner in Crime has been involved with, as I heard it described to me, "his new squeeze" so that has pretty much meant that stupid fun has been just a dream.  So when my boss let me out of work early I couldn't for the life of me figure out what to do other then hit up Red Wagon and get a bottle of wine and some mini bottles of margaritas ($30.14).  I went home, kicked my shoes off  and sat out side soaking up the sunshine.  I started flipping through my contacts to see if I could con anyone in going out that night but no luck.  The sad thing is that I actually did have plans that night.  I was supposed to play tennis with my ex boyfriend. The truth is I have to keep that door shut.  I met up with him on Sunday he started with the money thing.  He'd pay for a trip to Arizona for me, he'd pick up the tab for dinner at a nice restaurant, he was so busy that even though he wanted to buy a house of his own he couldn't find the time and asked if would I do it for him.  Per usual it sounded extremely tempting because the night before while trying to find the money in my budget to go back to school I couldn't get the numbers to work in my favor.  I think the deal breaker was when I had talked to him about tennis and mentioned that I didn't have a racket that he said would buy one for me.  I'm a big girl and I know it's hard but I can pay my own way through life.  Then there's the other thing.  I can't remember a time when we hung out when he wasn't drunk and as someone that needs to cut down on the vodka tonics that's just a bad situation.  I suppose it didn't help that our conversation was as deep as a puddle.  Don't get me wrong I wasn't expecting a whole political debate or the existence of a higher power type of talk but something more then slurred compliments, the revelation that he kept two cats locked up in his basement (temporarily housing them for his cousin for the past four months) and that annoying one word answer thing that he does was just not what I need at this point in my life.  I deserve better.  Now I just have to figure if I should look around online (eck) or just work on being the "O"  I don't know what to do right now... I miss being with someone but I got to figure out what I've got to offer to someone else.  *Sigh*  Someday it'll all make sense, right?